Mind sickness

I know there are no rhymes but I decided not to edit it and post it in it's exact primary form...

My empty mind is screaming in silence.

It's not depression nor aggression.

It's not hatred nor desperation.

The apathy is not enough to describe it.

I just don't know what am I thinking...

I have no wish for anything,

I have no energy to breathe.

If only I knew what's happening,

I'd runaway from it.

Dunno how to change everything,

dunno what I want.

It's like I sleep with open eyes,

it's like I feel with closed heart.

I carry on like a lost soul without a body.

Is my body here? Am I still alive or am I dreaming?

Is it psychics or physics

that's causing me this lost of consciousness?

Something hurts but I don't know what!

Someone pushes me but I can't see him!

I hear voices but I can't listen to them.

I write words and I forget them.

Is it my hands that's writing?

Is this my body that I'm in?

That's it!

It feels like I'm not in my own body,

it's like I don't really feel what I feel.

Someone else possesses me now,

someone is stealing my soul,

grabbing from it's material!

COMATOSE...

Ok, I finished it already, now what?...

Smoking blue dust

Like a bird I fly,

like the wind I sight,

as a star in the sky

in the waves I die.

Егоизъм

Още първи ден, а вече искам да се връщам,

като в първи ден твойто тяло да прегръщам,

бленувам да усетя пак ръцете ти,

нежно да докосна аз лицето ти.

Като чиста сладост усещам твоят мирис,

от цвят червен се разширява твоят ирис,

като огън върху лед си ти за мен,

неконтролируем хаос, безсистемен.

Само първи ден, а вече искам да се върна,

като в първи ден твойте чувства да обгърна,

като огнен скреж да впия бледи устни,

да слеем сърцата ни, на вид невръстни.

For you...

Together Against The Law

I notice you among the shoal,

I see you at the end of the hall,

I hear you in the impervious gall,

I feel the sulphurous haul

and I touch your lips in appall. 

I don't care about the intense brawl.
Fuck them all!

We're together against the wall.

Through the path of sorrow

Sister of pain

coming to drain

my blood in champaign

for the sister of vain.

 

Sister of shame

burning from my flame,

claiming I'm to blame

for this unfair game.

Sister of confusion

calling in delusion,

no one coming for transfusion,

I stood without a conclusion. 

Sister of tears,

people think she clears

your mind from fears

but nothing disappears.

Sister of knowledge

giving away her storage

that I have to receive in college,

too early to acknowledge.

 

All sisters of sorrow

are here for my marrow,

to walk me through this narrow

path I chose to harrow.

 

Never forgotten fairytale

Once upon a time

there was this lonely girl,

living like a mime,

she gave it a whirl.

'It's a real whirl', she thought,

although it was still not enough,

she knew what she really sought,

until she'd found it, it was tough.

 

So once upon an accidental time

this not so lonely girl

wrote the beginning rhyme

and threw herself in the real whirl.

 

Her infernal blessing

began in this random day,

now she started dressing,

her soul she could display.

 

And once upon a time 

she had so much companionship,

pursued her loneliness to be prime,

she was taking her wanted trip.

 

I'm here to catch her when she falls,

she deserved to live at last,

no more prison among these walls,

she won't forget about her past.

 

Now once upon this time

everything seems weirdly alright,

she feels satisfied and I'm

her mirror, soul sister in delight.